I’m at the end of my rope. I need help.
Have you ever had a student who, on your worst days, you kind of pray doesn’t show up?
Yeah, that’s pretty godly of me. But it’s also honest.
Well he showed up tonight. And I immediately felt anxious. And annoyed. And mad. And terribly sad all at once.
Now don’t judge too harshly here. He’s been coming for over three years and we’ve tried everything.
We’ve had him in different small groups. We’ve told him to take a break (read: Don’t come back for a few weeks). We’ve told him to show us respect (and told him exactly what that would look like). We’ve told him that we loved him, wanted him to know Jesus, wanted him to be there.
He throws it in our faces.
I don’t blame him. He’s been kicked out of every school he’s attended until this point. His home life is terrible. His positive male role models include…nobody. No Dad. No Mom. State custody. Several different custodies actually.
Like I said, something in me doesn’t blame him.
The kid is lost. He needs Jesus.
That’s the main reason we keep fighting to get him back. That’s why we want him with us.
But tonight was different. Tonight the small group he was in had another lost student. One who is genuinely interested. One who’s not really showing any signs of turning Jesus away. But after tonight, this new student was feeling like maybe this wasn’t going to be his thing.
Because of that other guy.
Where do I draw the line?
Who do I call when I’m not even sure where this kid stays?
What do I do when I’m pretty sure other kids are missing out on meeting Jesus at our group when this guy is in their path?
I’ve had the sit-downs. I’ve talked with him outside church. I’ve shared the Gospel with him more times than I can count. I’ve prayed and even fasted for this guy.
I just don’t know what to do.
This kid needs Jesus. That’s the only thing that’s going to change him. But he’s rejected every offer I’ve given him. He’s only ever showed me that he’s the mocker that shows up in Proverbs so often.
I want him in church. I want him in my church. I want him to be radically saved.
It’s just not happening.
What in the world am I going to do?