Several years ago, as my wife and I were stepping into a new season of Ministry, one of my mentors asked me an incredible question. He said, â€œWhat are you consistently and deliberately praying for in your ministry?â€ At the time, I prayed for our ministry regularly, as I am sure you do as well, but I had never considered a consistent and deliberate prayer request.
In that season, I began to ask God to give me a clear prayer focus for the Student Ministry I led. In the first few years my requests were fairly normal… God help our ministry to do this… Help our kids to be that… I would wake up, and begin each day with prayer, making sure to include that request. In time, I watched God multiply the incredible things He was doing in our ministry (or at least increase my ability to see them).
As I sought this consistent and deliberate prayer focus at the beginning of last year God very clearly turned the attention of my prayer to my own heart. John Calvin once said, â€œThe human heart is a factory of idols.â€ Powerfully true. You and I have the ability to turn basically anything into an idol. Now, we all know that some idols are easier to identify then others. I wasnâ€™t bowing down in front of a golden calf, or anything, but God quickly revealed that I was beginning to make an idol out of my â€œministry.â€
Hereâ€™s the deal… I am a good Youth Pastor. I am not bragging, itâ€™s just true. I am a good Youth Pastor, and I am sure you are too. In fact, you are probably much better at it then I am… But my concern is this: Some of us are probably better â€œPastorsâ€ then we are followers of Jesus. As my friend Lance Witt accurately explains it; Jesus is the gift and ministry is simply the box by which we deliver the gift, yet some of us have switched the two.
It seems to me that some of us unintentionally slip into viewing what we get to do as our occupation rather than our calling. If I view my role as an occupation than I can do it, I can make it happen, I can figure it out on my own… If it is a calling, however, than I am in desperate need of the Holy Spirit to help me do what God has asked me to do. We forget that.
I had begun to try and â€œmanufactureâ€ ministry from my own spirit, in my own strength, and in my own direction. I was doing what I thought was best for our kids and our ministry… Some of us subtly believe that we can teach, preach, meet with families, recruit Ministry Partners, hang with kids, and host huge killer events with little to no reliance on the Holy Spirit. At least I did.
So my prayer became simply this: God, help me not try and manufacture ministry, but to be deliberately dependent on You. Praying this everyday of the year (sometimes several times a day) gave me life in ministry like I had never experienced before. It took the pressure off, because I was forced to remember that I am not the Holy Spirit (we all need that reminder sometimes). It restored my energy, and renewed my excitement to see what God was going to do next. It is teaching me to be more thankful. It is helping me to remain open and teachable. Most importantly, it is teaching me to stay out of the way of what God wants to do in and through our ministry.
This question has helped me, and maybe God will use it to help you: Am I trying to â€œmanufactureâ€ ministry, or am I being deliberately dependent on the Spirit of God for every step I take?
The reality is that Godâ€™s plans for our respective ministries are far greater than we could ever think or accomplish. The more we try to do in our own power the more we rob ourselves and our students of experiencing all that God has in store. I donâ€™t know about you, but I donâ€™t want to miss out on anything God wants to do.
Consider seeking a consistent and deliberate prayer request for your ministry this year. You never know what God might want to teach youâ€¦
Ryan McDermott is the RP Director of Student Ministries at Christ Fellowship â€“ Royal Palm, FL. Follow him @ryanmcdermott.