I’ve been a youth pastor for nearly a year now and it didn’t take all that long for me to figure out that there wasn’t really a whole lot I could do to help our students be passionate about God. I’m not passionate enough, good enough, energetic enough, cool enough, strong enough, able enough, or spiritual enough to make these students want God. I have actually spent a big amount of time this year discouraged about ministry.
Here I am devoting massive amounts of time, money and creative energy trying to get people excited about God, doing everything I know how to do, exhausting every resource and it just didn’t really seem to be doing very much good. I’d still here complaints about how boring Sunday school and/or youth group was. I’d still have to tell the same students every week to bring their Bibles. I still got phone calls from parents saying their student didn’t want to go to the purity banquet because they didn’t know who else was going.
Isn’t this true of us? We exhaust our energy, time, money, and efforts trying to defeat a sin, convince someone that God is real, stop drinking, start reading our Bible every day, All of that along with seeing and hearing about the different sickness, marriage problems, financial crisis’, deaths, disasters in our church body, in our community, city, world, and in myself really weighed me down. I felt overwhelmed, stuck, finished, at my end.
DONE! I remember one morning I got up feeling empty spiritually and I did the only thing I could at that point. I picked up my guitar and asked Holy Spirit to help me worship. He did more than that. He met me there. He brought to mind a song called "Consuming Fire" by Tim Hughes. The words so powerful penetrated my heart.
Consuming fire fan into flame a passion for your name, spirit of God fall in this place
Lord have your way, Lord have your way with us. Stir up in our hearts a passion for your name
I was singing this song and then I started weeping. I mean literally, uncontrollable, inconsolable weeping. I started crying out to God saying “LORD, you have got to come here.” You have got to do something. You have got to send your Holy Spirit to move in us and give us a passion for your name. You have to stir up in our hearts a passion for your name. LORD please do this in us because if you don’t we are finished!! We don’t even have to wait for YOUR wrath to come because we will have destroyed our own selves.”
What is my point? My point is simple. ”…’Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,’ says the LORD Almighty. Zechariah4:6b “…If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. John 15:5b I pray that we all will spend some time reflecting on your own life and ask the Holy Spirit to reveal to us ways in which we’ve tried to do this life on our own and may the Holy Spirit bring us all to a place of repentance and unchanging, unwavering dependence upon Him.